帮忙翻译下句子，谢谢（中翻英）

Suddenly, I find the matter which i have ever been striving and caring is actually futile to me.

I realize in a sudden that what I cared for and wantd for such a long time is not necessary at all!

suddenly realized so that what being strived and enjoyed for all throgh actually is not what I need.

all of a sudden, it is not my needs that what i have been loving and struggling for

suddently, I find what i ever struggled and loved is useless.

Has been found for all of a sudden, like that actually do not need their own.

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