”不爱你，是我安慰自己的借口！爱你，是活着的理由！”翻译成英文是什么？

Don't love you, then it is the excuse to comfort myself! love you, is the reason why i'm living!

I don't love you,is the excuse I used to comfort myself.I love you ,is the reason why I live.

not loving you is my excuse for comforting myself! loving you is my reason to live!

Do not you love is an excuse for my own comfort! Love you, the reasons are alive!

I don't you love is just an excuse for my self-comforting,
while I love you is the reason for me to stay alive!