第一次这么想争一样东西...所以我不想输的英文怎么说

Desiring for something so much for the first time, I don't want to lose.

It is the first time that I try all means to get a thing,so I do not want to lose.

It is the first time that I have had such a strong desire to get a thing,so I do not want to fail.

For the first time in my life, I want something so desperately that I hate to be a loser .

It is the first time that I have had keen desire to compete for something ,so I can not fail