现实太虚伪,抑或是我太认真,心死的沉默.翻译成英语

Reality is too hypocritical, or is it me too seriously, totally silent
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Should I blame this on fake reality, or my foolish stubbornness?
My heart has died of sadness, echo of silent grievance will never end...

Reality is false, or am I too seriously, heart dead silence.

The reality is way too hypocritucal,nor I took it way seriously,deadly silence.