The unhappy official什么意识啊？

悲 哉 行 白居易

悲哉为儒者，力学不知疲。读书眼欲暗，秉笔手生胝。
十上方一第，成名常苦迟。纵有宦达者，两鬓已成丝。
可怜少壮日，适在穷贱时。丈夫老且病，焉用富贵为。
沉沉朱门宅，中有乳臭儿。状貌如妇人，光明膏粱肌。
手不把书卷，身不擐戎衣。二十袭封爵，门承勋戚资。
春来日日出，服御何轻肥。朝从博徒饮，暮有倡楼期。
平封还酒债，堆金选蛾眉。声色狗马外，其余一无知。
山苗与涧松，地势随高卑。古来无奈何，非君独伤悲。

The Unhappy Official
never tired of study,
reading until he could not see
holding his pen until his fingers bacame pianful;sitting
for exams ten times
until he pasted;success has come
too late;he is now an important official
but his hair is already white;there is little
happiness for him;when
young,he spent his days being very poor;now old and often sick,
money and fame are no use to him.
living behind the great read
gates in a youth with the
tast of mother's milk still inhis mouth
not too much look at,with soft skin
like a girl's and a gentle face
he has never worn a soldier's
uniform;at 20 he got
his father&