这个怎么弄成英文?

I can't believe you have forgiven me.I just could read the monologue and read the pain I hurt you.I can't forgive myself,please ingore me as I have gone.
顺便说句 这是周杰伦的<搁浅>的歌词嘛

How could how meet you to forgive my/me only to be able unexpectedly forever to read the dialogue/to read me to give you injury/me not to be able to forgive me/to ask you to treat as me already not in ......