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i was so recreant that i couldn't say my love out.i hate myself,Needing your comfort,but i know that is impossible

I thought I good am really incompetent, including likes you all saying that does not export. I good hate myself, I want you to comfort me, but I knew this is not possible.

I really feel so recreant myself,i even could not express my love to you. I hate myself and hope that you can comfort me, though i know this will never happen.

I feel i real nice crippledom,love you all say not way out.I nice hate self,think you comfort me,but i konw this is not be likely.

I was so recreant that Icouldn't say my love out. I hate myself, needing yourcomfort,dut i kouw that is impossidle