哪位大侠能为我翻译一下这段话?请别用翻译软件,谢谢

Today I finally have the courage to write this letter to you,
My friend after after said I am knows sense a person, I thoughtshe is right,
This period of time I discovered originally I care about yourletter very much, also cares about you very much,
My heart has not continuously all rejected you,
I tell you to say that, your love lets me not beuncomfortable, is not is really uncomfortable, but is I has no way tocontrol my heart, I continuously thought I may control all, thereforeI want to evade, but when I escaped, actually discovered my heartfeels bad very much, I think oneself very intelligently, but now Idiscovered I really very silly, after loses you only then discoversthese, I did not know you can understand I was saying any, youpossibly thought I very laughable, very silly, is very strange Youhave control over smile, actually I also thought oneself is verystrange, how was I? In several hours was my birthday, hoped I had abig cake, could let me forget the wo