帮我翻译，翻译成英文，谢谢喽。我只有三十分的积分了…………，都送给各位达人了

I don't want to get my mind in disorder because I am aware that it makes people tired. All I want is just trust between us, but is it really a burden for one to care about another? She seems to be a castle which always keeps me outside of it. Is it true that we can't get nearer to each other? All I have got for what I have done enthusiastically is only apartness and disappointment and I don't know why. Have I been wrong since the very beginning?

I don't want to give free reign to fancy, I know that foolish thinking is very tiring. I want mutual trust,could caring about a person be really hard work? I feel that she is just like a fortress, keeping me out there permanently. Is it true that the distance between us cannot be altered?
Why is it that after I have truthfully done everything, yet all I get in return is often indefference and disappointment. Could it be true that I been wrong right from the beginning?

I do not want to think wildly, cause I kn