一个简单句子中文翻成英文~

Has the way that I pursue happiness been wrong? ( Is it incorrect?)
I am really unwilling to return to loneliness again.

" I am truly reluctant to cuddle loneliness again"

"DOUBLE TAKE IT！” 可以有双倍奉还的意思么

"Double take" 的意思:

"心不在焉后突然注意而恍然大悟"

例子:

a. He did a double take when I said I was getting married.
我告诉他我要结婚了，他半天才恍然大悟。

b. I did a double take when I saw how much weight she had put on.
我看见她胖了许多，开始时认不出她来，之后再仔细地看她一眼才认出是她。

c. Daiyu did a double take when he saw Baoyu in girl's clothes.
当黛玉看到宝玉穿着姑娘的衣服，她惊奇地又看了一眼。

did the way i catch up with happiness wrong? i really dont want to back to loneliness.
或者
i am indeed dont want to embrace the loneliness.
另外的小问题
take 是带走的意思，不是奉还的意思，这个要结合语境来翻译，大概意思就是 多拿点，拿双份的。
希望有帮助~！

Am I taking the wrong way to happiness? I really don't want to embrace the loneliness once a