各位大佬？谁能把这段话翻译成英文？谢谢！

As finding the creed that was once firmly believed, the faith that was once firmly believed was after the innocent illusion originally, the agony and disappointment follow, and is mixed with some fear, and uneasy. Then terrified discovery desperate to stand in you closer quietly already. You begin all day as sucking the opium and it is companion, helpless self- ruin to be desperate. Then, become more downhearted. Everything that was once firmly believed becomes as if being cut off from the outside world for ages, think that seemed to live in the false fairy tale kingdom that was full of cheating in the past by oneself. The brightness becomes out of reach, even has already forgotten his color. The agony all day makes some miserable. But even except thick haze here, the bright hope still exists, however, then must cross that strong darkness, then, become out of reach to embrace that bright hope again, if it is difficult to step on it. Misty hope, still exist. In fact,in at the beginni