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so near yet so far, lost that "have been" feeling

Sometimes the similar feeling seems far away from me and sometimes it seems very close to me. However I can find the same one as before any more.

Near but seems also far, far or close sometimes, lost the feeling once upon a time.

it seems either near or far which makes me loose sense

It's so close but still far away;the feelings I used to have are gone.
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