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I have been here for one year already. I find I have changed a lot because of them. For that reason, I have almost become an entirely different person. I used to be a well organized person. However, I am no longer able to concentrate on things that I do. One side of me wants to leave, whereas the other side of me cannot let it go. I used to travel a lot. It had always been my dream to travel across the nation, visit every city in China and use my bare hands to create my own future. However, I now feel I am a loser who works in an ordinary factory with nowhere else to go because I find I do not belong anywhere but here. As I have grown accustomed to this type of life, I have no interest in attempting anything. I want to live in peace and harmony.
However, I know I will leave sooner or later. I may go to any place. I do not want to reminisce. I do not want to leave friends whom I like and anybody surrounding me. What am I going to do? Should I continue living like this or not? <