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In fact I hate you so much .however ,I just can't forget you .
I can't be ease for us .
I hold my tears while hurt ailing my own ...

I am really so stupid and so childish.

As a matter of fact,I do indeed hate you!
but somehow, I just couldn't forget you all along,I couldn't let go of you, I hold back my tears and hurt myself.

I really hate you. But I still can't forget about you, I can't let you go. I held my tears and hurt myself

In fact, I hate you! But I still can not forget you put on you does not fit me, my eyes hurt ailing my own ...