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Every time I pick up the phone, I always want to call that number. But I still don't have the courage. Am I still escaping?

Whenever I pick up the phone,I want to dial the familiar number,but I have no courage,Am I still evading?

Always want to dail that familar number every time i pick up the telephone, however, i have no guts. Am I still escaping?

每当拿起电话的时候,都想拨那熟悉的电话.可是怎么也没勇气.
我还在逃避吗?
Whenever i pick up the phone,i want to dial that familiar number.but i have no courage to do so.Am i still escaping something?

Every time I pick up the phone and wanna dial that familiar number, but I don't have the courage to do it.
Am I still not strong enough to face it?
(Am I still hiding myself?)

Whenever phone in hand, how I wanna dial the familiar number.

Lacking of courage, am I evading?