谁能帮我翻译这段呐？感激不尽

I waited in painful bewilderment all day.
I was numb.As if i had been hit by something.It was hard to breathe.
I ached all through.I was stunned-with finding out the truth.
My body knew before my mind quite did.in a minute.when i could think ,my mind would know.and as the pain in my body ebbed,the pain in my mind began.i knew.i could not put it intn words yet.
Memory says not like that-but to keep myself from ever being such a fool again:suffering now,to keep this awful thing from ever happening again.
Memory is clear on that;it was more like pulling the tooth,to get it over with-never mind the pain,this will be the end!
I lay there in the dark ,feeling the cold emotion of surrender.
In hurt.But nothing would ever hurt again.i would never let myself want anything again.
I lay there strethched out straight and stiff in the dark,my ....
In the morning it had been like a nightmare that is not clealy remembered--that one wishes to forget.