高手翻译！谢谢！快

I suddenly can't find hope,and forget if i ever had it before.
I suddenly forget what laugh is,but remember clearly every pain thoroughly in my heart .

I suddenly find hope, also forget ever had any hope
Suddenly I forgot what it feels like to laugh, but clearly remember every enough trails

I suddenly can not find hope to forget it once I have what I hope are suddenly forgotten what it feels like laughing, but clearly remember every heart痛彻