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In fact, by July 1 you have already started to change, but I always said to myself nothing would happen, but in fact I was only deceiving themselves and others, regardless of how hard work and for me, I have always said to myself, can not give up, I love her husband me that he is still waiting for me, but in reality, I know we have a third party, you do not deny that, or you do not want to hurt me. In any case, the reality is the reality, not your heart, I have been here. In this moment of pain, more deeply than before. I do not know when I will stop the pain. I understand, Master in this world there is a selfish side. I know I can not change things, you go back to my side. I know I will lose, but my lawyers and I said, I have the opportunity to go to the United States, in this minute, I still give up. I want to tell you one thing, I am not lost to the U.S. Consulate, I feel silly, in this emotionally. I want is you, not the United States. I know that no matter how much I love you,